December 2009
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I'm so happy.
Hooray for a two-week break off Adderall. Even though I’m spending it with nobody but myself. <3<3<3
dear tumblr
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-jewtroh:
my name is haleigh
tonight or tomorrow, i am going to kill myself
i’ve already planned out how
this isn’t a joke, i’m not asking for attention, and i’ve tried this before -
i know how to get...
Facebookin' it.
Danah: dude there's less then 24 hours left of 2009 thank godddddd. i want this year over with!
Me: Heheeh. This year was good for me. Woop.
Danah: ahh fuck you man xD
Me: WEll...I think it was. BAHAHAHA. I don't remember.
Danah: hahahhhhah xDD. dude I fucking love you!
Me: Ahaha, I love you too Danah. I wish you weren't going /: Seriously.
Danah: i think that one night of rolling was one of my favorite memories of this year. awhh ):
Me: That night was awesomee! Nom nom.
Danah: our first night! lalalal
Me: First night of what?
Danah: rollinnn'! at the pc xD. those blue mickey's. hehehe
Me: OH YEAH. AHHH SO GOOD. We should have a last, before you go!
On "Variety Amnesia" →
psychotherapy:
…Researchers reporting in the Journal of Consumer Research think the trick is overcoming “variety amnesia”— our tendency to forget that we’ve been exposed to a variety of great things, be they people, food, music, movies, home furnishings or other—and instead focus our attention on the singular thing that no longer gives us the tingles. To shake ourselves free from this negative...
Thank you Andie for this wonderful story
emileemarie:
KAY, so this guy, we call him frank, he went fishin
and he say something very fishy, very fishy indeed…
so he look up this fishy buisness in Hagrids book of Beasties
and found it was called a Hahah.
So he goes home to muther, and he is talking about his fishing trip.
and he says, “And then I saw a Hahah” and shes all like what? and hes like “A haha” and she like like “STOP...
I'm feeling bold today.
Maybe it’s just the lack of sleep. If you’d immediately think that you’d be on here…you’re not. These are people that wouldn’t think twice about being on here. Take I guess, I guess. -I’ve never known you personally, and I probably never will..but since I’ve known you and I barely know you, just a name and a face and some words, you’ve been so...
Death is a comfort;
dying is what I fear.
Ah shit...estoy hipnotado, buwjajaja ;0
Every few days...a solitary formspring entry comes...
you are amazing and i like you’re hair. it be amazing if we could be best friends! Aww thanks, you’re a sweetie. It’d be amazing if you texted me- 972 800 0364 ;0 http://www.formspring.com/forms/?740515-Z8l6oU3H2h
Ugh. Hate my mom.
Bye ):
After watching Donnie Darko..
for the second time(? Mackenzie, we watched it together, didn’t we? I could’ve sworn we did…and while I was watching it there were nips and bits of it that I remembered clearly but the majority of it seemed completely new. Get at me, okay? I’m questioning my sanity and my memory here.) I feel like the old me. The me that I remember being in March and April and May and...
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My night tonight= empanadas, and moviesss.
Finally opened my presents.
AND I’M KINDA SORTA REALLY PISSED THAT I DIDN’T GET MY CAMERA >:0 I’ve been wanting it for two years and my parents know that.. ugh, whatever. I’m really pleased with the other things I got<3
I'm here. I'm not hiding.
I feel uneasy and I feel sad. It’s Sunday and I don’t know what I should do. My family hates me right now. Well, my dad does. And my mom does only because ‘it’s my fault’ that my dad think’s I’m a horrible person and keeps getting pissed off and angry and he yells and punches holes in the wall and slams doors. And my brother, well he just kind of sits in...
Zombie.
Back and forth, crisscrossing the room, over and over again. One task is interrupted by another, that’s interrupted by another, that’s interrupted by another. But there’s one common goal, and each little job is leading up to it. My progress is erratic. But still I’m going, and I can’t stop. Pick up this, and sort all these, and organize that. Everything must be...
It's Christmas Eve,
and there’s two lonely little presents under the tree. Hmph, this family sucks. Buuut…on the bright side, they’re both for ME :D +Took my dog for a walk today. It’s bitter and cold and snowy and thoroughly enjoyable. It took me 30 minutes to completely thaw out. +I really wish I could go to Unsilent Night 3 but my parents have been soaking up all the dumbass statistics from...
SO.
I decorated a gingerbread house. The roof caved in. I ate the wall. Nom.
Nine Seven Two, Eight 00,0 Three Six Four.
I’m overeating like a bitch. Ugh. I want candy. Why do I crave so much shit/ I’m bored. I watch a different movie every day. And read books. I need new books. I need new clothes. And my back hurts. And I wish i hadn’t eaten all of these chips so quickly. Starbucks sounds good right now. I wish I had it. I want a movie that doesn’t suck. I’m bored. Anybody want to...
Errg.
He suggested we hang out. I almost got him to pick me up. Fuck…he didn’t reply to my last text. He called me, it was awkward, but I didn’t let that awkwardness show in my voice. I think I live too far. Ugh, whatever. Tonight didn’t feel right anyway. If only I weren’t grounded he could just pick me up whenever. Maaaaaaah >:|
“Facts can be misleading, but rumors, true or false, are often revealing.”
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I'm. Fucking. Bored.
Formspring.
I’m glad I’ve gotten to know you. You’re really different then most people, but I enjoy it. I’m not sure what it is, but keep doing whatever you’re doing. Whoever this is, (and I’m pretty sure I know who it is..) no, you haven’t gotten to know me. No one’s gotten to know me in a long time. Anybody who would think that should know that I feel weird,...
From birth.
So, this is it. I didn’t think I’d make it this far and be able to feel the way I do. I’m not sure what went wrong, I’m not sure what’s happening. I don’t think I’ve ever really known. Over the years I’ve flown smaller and smaller circles. It’s been one big spiral and now this; nose dive. I’ve gone from being numb to nothing at all. How...
Formspring. I don't get much anymore.
i would love to get to know you, you seem like quite an interesting person. Go for it, let’s see how far you can make it. Leave something, anything at all. http://www.formspring.com/forms/?740515-Z8l6oU3H2h
emileemarie:
Has anyone else noticed how in love the human race is with strangers?
They thrive on it. Omgele, mystery missions, chatroulette, even postsecret. They want to know others secrets or get advice, without having to know anything about eachother. It’s seems to be a thrill. There’s no wall up of “stranger danger” because it’s impersonal. You could have a five second or hour long...
I've got work that needs to get done.
Both half finished and half assed; an essay and an art project. But I’ve got nothing better to do than eat microwave pasta and read big fat books. What’s wrong with me? When I’m shown that there’s better that’s been done…I give up. I’m hopeless.
I don't care.
I dream of being perfect every single day. I look at myself in the mirror and I’m cutting and pasting and tweaking and fixing. It’s neurotic, it’s hopeless and pointless. I know. But I can’t stop myself. I want to move again. Far away. I want to leave all the wonderful people I’ve met. I don’t care. I don’t want people to know me. I don’t want there...
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Rumours
Hah. I heard about a lot of shit that went down today/this week at school. People are getting caught and getting arrested? They’re rolling/fucked up at school, dealing, in possession…and being sent to juvi. Well, have fun you guys…have fun.
Can I please put myself up for adoption?
Meeeh.
Is it bad that I’m actually enjoying my FOP meetings? I mean…the reason I have them is bad, but I’m meeting new really chill people and our classes are so funny. I’m literally cracking up half the time. Ahah, this one kid kept turning around and looking at me and we’d make eye contact sometimes…he’s kinda cute. Oh and this black kid came in wearing this...
I'd really rather you keep out.
“We have to bridge the gap between you guys. I want you to tell your parents about how you’re feeling…they care about you and I’m sure they’d want to know. They only have your best interests at heart.” I want this doctor to fuck off. I don’t like you or your generic monologues that you probably give to every other person that walks in. You don’t even...
My weekend.
+I got a new sketchbook, finally +Went running for 20 minutes +Got chocolate chips to make cookies +Ate half the chocolate chips +Watched many Harry Potter movies +Never made cookies +Had good sleep +Nostalgic for Jane +Got new hair brush, and comb +Surprise visit from Holly and Mackenzie +Drank lots of sunkist +Had strange dreams +Haven’t done homework +Tired, lazy, popped a pill,...
Holding myself,
together. Left to be. Leave me alone. I’m an alien to visitors. Accustomed to myself and only myself. I’m losing touch. I’m losing way. Slipping past, slipping down. Don’t bother. I’m missing, everything.
Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows...
is going to be in two parts:o It’s gunna the best Harry Potter movies for sure. Ahhh, I’m so fucking excited<3 Oh and I’ve learned that The Goblet of Fire was propsed to be a two part movie too… but they decided not to>:| They should haveee! It would’ve been a billion times better.
Formspring.
I <3 and miss you! my mom wants her boots back Love you to baabyguuh. Ahaha…then come get them? :P http://www.formspring.com/forms/?740515-Z8l6oU3H2h
I feel like shit.
I’m so stressed out because of school. I’m so tired and I can’t focus. And I’m frustrated because I’m so unmotivated. Ugh…I feel like there’s something blocking me. I don’t know what to do with myself. I feel like a huge failure. All I really want to do is sleep all my troubles away. But I fucking can’t. Ugh, and I’m pissed because my Dad...
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I was in such a good mood today. I accidently flushed my Adderall down the toilet at school cause it was in my pocket and it fell out. Ahaha. Blaaah, bad mood now. I’ll be up late tonight brooding and attempting to study and finish my work. Goodnight.