February 2010
52 posts
Just finished watching A Clockwork Orange.
And I’ll tell you rightfully so my brothers… it was grand.
January 2010
59 posts
1 tag
I'm so indifferent to everything.
I can’t help it. My grades are slipping, my motivation is slipping. My interest in everything is fading. Any attempt or ‘care’ I give is just for the sake of it. Any effort I put into anything is only put forth so I don’t crash and burn. I’ll crash, but I refuse to burn. I don’t even know why I feel this way. I feel nothing. Laying in bed and just staring at the...
I've got nothing interesting or exciting to say;...
+I’ve got a doctors appointment tomorrow. I get to leave Spanish early, hooray. Hopefully I’ll get off this fucking Adderall and get something new. And hopefully I’ll have better results with it.
On a scale of one to none, how much of a fuck do...
"A young, shy Japanese couple that had been...
Okay….okay…
"An escaped con hides out in the wilderness....
Dumbfuck.
"A nymphomaniac uses a peeled carrot as a sex toy....
Reminds me of that one chapter in Haunted.
I'm paranoid.
I doubt the sincerity of others. Even from years ago. I can’t bring myself to give out sympathies to people. I feel like I’ve been fooled. I feel like I’m just a joke to you. I feel like I annoy you. If you never talk to me first, I’ll start to ignore you. I can’t deal with people that never show an ounce of genuine interest in me. Because I will not be fooled; I...
Wtf. My dad's listening to Hillary Duff.
One day you're going to die.
emmabridgette:
stephaniegramada:
Your neighbor is going to die, your teacher is going to die, the school slut is going to die, your moms going to die, your best friends sisters boyfriend is going to die, your dealer is going to die, your old friend that you barley talk to is going to die, your enemy is going to die, your children are going to die, the weird girl that sits next to you in...
“Every breathe we take has a reason, each step we walk has a purpose.”
– Andie Scheck (via nataliebootlah) (via yasmine) Lol @ my 8th grade philosophizing. I would never say that now.
It's not what you think it is. →
“I learned that life is really messy and complicated and that it doesn’t...”
– AVPM
I'm screaming on the inside.
Ugh. Fuck. I’m gong crazy. And I can’t find my fucking phone. I like knocked everything off my nightstand last night when I as sleeping. Damnittt.
Somebody get me the fuck out of here.
All of you. Piss me off. So fucking much. You guys...
I want to punch you in the face. So fucking hard.
lindseymatz:
I keep thinking about how much I’ve cared and how little I’ve been cared for. I’ve given my all so many times, I’ve made so many reckless decisions, I’ve litterally offered all I’ve worked for to see someone smile and yet I get pain in return. I always wonder what I thought when I let myself be theirs, what makes them any different from the last person who destroyed me? Why haven’t...
I need a fucking break. I'm begging.
I don’t want to think. Just sit me in front of a silver screen and let roll the moving photographs that provide artificial thought. I’m so worn out but I’m so young, I don’t understand. What’s wrong with me? What happened?
I'm so tired of breathing; of my heart beating.
All I do is work, eat, watch movies, sleep, and think about doing all those things. Everything else has either left me or I’ve just cut it off. I’m so fucking tired and stressed out. And it’s all for nothing, but I kept telling myself someday it will matter, that someday I’ll be glad that I stuck to it and pushed forward, that someday it will all be worth it. I’ve got...
“It’s because we’re so trapped in our culture, in the being of being...”
– CP
wow
prettylittlew0rds:
I don’t know how to flirt anymore. this sucks! ):
either that,or i really don’t know what to say..
Me neither girl, me neither…. the A trio fails at flirting ;(
Leave me be.
I don’t have a single thing to say. To you or to anybody. I really just want to be alone. And it scares me. I don’t want to want to be alone. Can’t I close my eyes and wake up across the border? I want to disappear and leave no answers, leave you all wondering, where did she go? Maybe you won’t miss me. I know you won’t. But I don’t care. I just want to find...
“A man’s ethical behavior should be based effectually on sympathy, education, and...”
– Albert Einstein
I haven’t been eating. Not much any way. Not enough to really count as anything. I can feel my stomach churning, empty, it’s making noises sometimes too. But just the thought of having food even near my mouth makes me sick. Maybe tomorrow, maybe.
I’m scared. I feel really dumb for feeling this way because you didn’t reply to the text I sent you hours ago. I talked to your...
“Angst, sometimes called dread, anxiety or even anguish is a term that is common...”
– Existentialism, Wikipedia
One of my biggest fears. I have always been fucking terrified of the idea of throwing myself off some great height, or committing suicide, because of those moments right before death where you see it coming and you know that it was your decision and you can’t take it...
Crushinnn' and it feels fucking good.
“To put it another way, more briefly; we no longer have, as past societies have...”
– A Man For All Seasons I personally, have always felt most comfortable with the thought that I can be anything and that I am essentially nothing. For most of my life I have pushed away the confines and the boundaries of comforts that most other people seem to strive for. Ever had I tried to merge...
Almost, sometimes, always, maybe, in my mind.
In my mind the words fly by, narrating the world around me. I laugh quietly and smile to myself and make faces at the walls. My eyes roam up and down. I know what shoes you wore yesterday. I wonder weather you might ever wear a different jacket. My ears pick up bits here and there, I ask myself have you always been so stuck up; is there a brain behind that ditsy stereotypical voice that hands out...
My night is your day.
Coffee and sugar and Adderall. Up all night, mmmhmmm.
Help me find a dress to match these shoes! →
I just got them and I really need a dress to match them! And I don’t want to return them because I love them and I got them for a reaaallly good price. (Not from the Steve Madden website.) So yeah, help me?
Mindfuck.
You guys are funny. You guys are dramatic. You’re strong, you’re weak, you’re broken and dying and crying and hurting. You’re asking for attention, you’re shying away. You’re doing everything you can. You’re writing and you’re praying to a god that’s not there and I’m sick of it. Stop begging for help, stop blaming unseen forces. This is...
Sever all ties. Follow procedure. Pledge abstinence. Fuck at your leisure. Breathe in then out, but not out then in. Cause over function. Restart again. I need to see my dreams as I close my eyes. Remembering nothing and begging for light.
I should stop rehersing and reciting and call you...
