She flies with her own wings.

How did I let this happen.

I need to end this terrible cycle of self-sabotage that I’ve fallen into. I never get anything done, or done right, and I’m not living up to my full potential. I’ve been neglecting my schoolwork, my studies, and my college applications, and it’s gotten way out of control. I’m putting my foot down. Right now.

This is the end.
This will be my last all-nighter.
No more laying around watching movies, or perusing the internet, or doing other generally unproductive activities. I have too much to get done. Too many things that need to be tended to. From now on it’s work and then play.

So tonight, I will abuse my body and my mind and screw my clockwork up for the last time. I will make a mess of myself tonight, and over the course of the next few days I will put together a healthier, more functional person.

So here’s
one more hit to calm the nerves, and
one more pop to keep me focused, and
away we go.